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Really, really sucks. But anyway, I'm finally on Summer Vacation (Thank God). And until yesterday it was really nice.
What happened yesterday afternoon was scarring. The guy, Eric, that I was dating scared me. So since Eric is going to a different school next year I thought it would be best if we stopped seeing each other when school let out. and I talked to him about it yesterday around 5ish and we broke up. But that part wasn't to bad.
The bad part was when he told me he was committing suicide at the end of Summer Vacation, that I was the only reason he was still alive.. We spent hours fighting and arguing over this. Trying to convince him not to. It was horrifying. I was crying, shaking, and praying to God. After I told him "You. Aren't. Killing. Yourself." and he asked how I knew he won't and I answered "I don't, I trust you to stop being an idiot and listen to what I'm saying." he did reply for and hour to it and another message, I freaked out. Couldn't stand it. I finally called him and he answered the phone and I just got mad.
Apparently he's tried to commit suicide 4 different times but failed in his life. Last night he ended up cutting himself, and I'm to scared to talk to him right now. But I need to know if he's okay.
"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." ~ Thomas A. Edison
With love,
Sarah Smiles
