Dark and Light Wonders

This is the story of the Dark Angel..

 Once upon a time there was a regular angel who was chosen to watch over a girl as well as lead her to good not evil... So he spoke to her with her just thinking it was her conscience but it was him! And then a demon took over the angel as well as the girl. The demon was almost always controlling her like a puppet tied to strings.. But the real angel still had some control over his spiritual body, you see. So he had been slowly pushing the demon out for years and he finally did enough to bring the girl up past the clouds and into heaven since she was traumatized and no longer could be taught good from bad as a living mortal. So like I was saying, he brought her up to heaven to let her free of the demon and to let her be happy and full of grace, for past the clouds she had more power and knew which way led to good and light.

THE END

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open." ~ John Barrymore

John Barrymore has good quotes! ~ Sarah Smiles

Breathe. One Step At a Time.

I didn't realize until now how long it's been since I've logged into blogger. Apparently 24 days...

Today was the first day of school since Thanksgiving break. And well to be honest, it couldn't have been slower! I'm seriously ready for June to be here or at least Christmas break. Better yet, I'm ready for 2015 unless the theorists were correct (Note the high doubt in this sentence) and the world does end this December!

Oh well if I do die, I'll be happier. I already know I will. You know what they say, the good die young. But if I get another chance at life, I have a new motto... Next time, I'll be more insane. I like it. Don't you?

The cold front must have slowly passed me by yesterday because it wasn't even that cold this morning at the school. It's kind of sad though to me at least. I've learned to love the cold, and especially the rain. Which pretty much sucks considering it's as warm and dry as bloody hell here.


"God is at home, it's we who have gone out for a walk." ~ Meister Eckhart



Hmph. I like that one! And if you'd like to see some things I've been working on like any of these,

And you have an instagram account, then go online or on the app and look up @howsarahsmiles! You'll find plenty there. :) bye ~ Sarah Smiles

What Did Sarah Say Again?

She said "Love is watching someone die." So, who's going to watch you die?

So sorry for that rather depressing post the other day. Wow I say sorry a lot... But I decided to take a shower this afternoon because I wasn't gross but something told me "Hey Sarah! Don't just go into your lazy room and sit around basically waiting for the world to end your life, go take a shower!" And shower I did!

I listened to the muffled words coming through Pandora's Indie Pop Radio through out cleansing my self and when I was about to get out and dry off, I heard this song... Sort of, like I said the words were muffled through the sounds of water smacking small tiles. But the song is called What Sarah Said!

The lyrics are so gorgeous if you actually read them. I wish a different person was singing this song though even though it's a good song you can't even understand it hardly! So here I am, back hunched like an Igor, as I sit on my bed typing words that come to me and listening to the band! Oh the band is Death Cab For Cutie!


"Dreams must be heeded and accepted. For a great many of them come true." Paracelsus


"So long as we do not blow our brains out, we have decided life is worth living." ~ Philipus Aureolus Paracelsus


Almost forgot to mention, I have been seriously happy or at least content over the past three days. This happens to be because on Wednesday I found out how much people think of this piece of art I drew and colored for the district's Christmas Card Contest. My teacher and the seventh and sixth graders that take her art class that saw it think I could win the prize and love it! :) So I'm doing good incase anyone was kind of worried. ~ Love Sarah Smiles.

No I'm Not Nervous Coach,

Truth is, I'm terrified at how much I cry these days, at how much I never want to get out of bed ever, how much I listen to depressing Indie music on pandora, and most of all how much I wish I was some one else.

Especially since I don't have it "bad." My parents love me and aren't divorced. Guys tell me they love or like me, I have awesome friends, and I also do wonderfully in school.

Can someone please just diagnose me for something? I'm tired of feeling like this every single day, and having to put fake smiles on everyday and perfect it in the mirror.

"Cure sometimes, treat often, comfort always." ~ Hippocrates

See you all later. ~ Sarah

 

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Bagels

I'm in love with a bagel. It has strawberry cream cheese spread mostly even on top. With the slightest waves of pink imperfections as a reminder its a human invention and food. It's never toasted because I'm a freak and I hate that when it comes to this delightful thing. And then shared even if I have no desire to do so among everyone I know here.

But I'm serious, bagels(along with their spreads), southern sweet tea, and quesadillas are the best things that this world has at the moment. Well those three things and Perks of Being a Wallflower!

I've decided Perks is the most amazing book/movie, as well as The Unwritten Rule(just book), that has ever been written and acted out! I cried so much during the end just like I did in the book. I'm to glad I watched it on Saturday!

"Welcome to the Island of Misfit Toys." ~ Perks of Being a Wallflower

Bye. ~ Sarah Smiles

Waiting for Perks

You wait forever. Then when your told you can stop waiting and you get your hopes up it's only to be disappointed. Then your told the same thing again so again you get hope in your circulatory system... But you realize it was all for nothing. Now is about the time to get the truth. Time to use the internet.

Why can't a movie be released worldwide on one day? I ask because I've been waiting to see Perks of Being a Wallflower for maybe a month or so, and have been disappointed like three times! Apparently it comes out Nationwide on October 12th and I swear I'll write a letter to the people who control release dates if I don't have the opportunity to watch this movie on the 12th! And trust me, they will be sorry! Or at least they will be if they know what's good for 'em! ;P

But I went shopping this afternoon after school, because for some reason I had to go to school on the magnificent Columbus Day of October 8th, 2012! But whatever! Yesterday I watched a bunch of movies, as well as Saturday! Oh and the guy I like, Michael, got a hair cut over the weekend! Jee I hope he asks me to go to the Halloween Dance with him or at least to dance, (after I'm finished at the photo booth for yearbook that is!) and I could ask Kiana to hold my Nikon Camera and not to take her eyes off of it what-so-ever for any reason, and we shall get married and have a few kids and I'll be a forensic scientist/photographer and he'll be whatever it is he wishes to be! :) Hey, a girl can dream can't she?


 "We accept the love we think we deserve." ~ Perks Of Being A Wallflower


Excuse my crazy, endless sneezing and germs flying on my screen, keyboard and arm! :/ ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

I Should, I Would, but I Shan't

The harmony of the orange, yellow, and slightly brownish leaves on the trees outside are invisible, but yet I still see them all. Some of them falling at a frequent speed, while the others hang on for life as the forceful wind tries to take away all of their hope.

All I have is my memories from the past years, from when there were trees growing from their seedlings in the same location for many years. When all of the leaves from the trees would fall at a slow pace, be raked into a pile, and then would be crashed into by a mindless child, or slightly kicked by someone on a swing tied to a thick and trustworthy branch.

The fuzzy hoodies fitting loosely around torsos. The hot chocolate flowing through and warming slightly chilled bodies. Yet all I have this amazingly loved season, are none other than faint memories. For every time I go outside I'm hit with a gush of cool winds and a terribly hot atmosphere. I'm sure all of the mountains would be absolutely gorgeous in fall if we were not in a burning desert with spiky bushes, small unnatural trees, and 93˚ weather until probably November it may get in the 80's but you can never be sure.

All I ask for is a place like Northeastern Kansas and Northwestern Missouri, where they are already in the 50's and 60's... Life should be, and could be like this for me... But it shan't.




“The sounds I had heard seemed worthy to mingle with this bright and perfumed atmosphere, and to thrill the beautiful scenery around me.” ~ William Cullen Bryant

“Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns.” ~ George Eliot

“No spring nor summer beauty hath such grace As I have seen in one autumnal face.” ~ John Donne

“I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.” ~ L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

“I want to say something so embarrassing about September that even the leaves start blushing and turning red.” ~ Jarod Kintz

“Fall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.” ~ Lauren DeStefano

“Autumn...the year's last, loveliest smile.” ~ William Cullen Bryant

“Autumn is the hardest season. The leaves are all falling, and they're falling like they're falling in love with the ground.” ~ Andrea Gibson

“Love the trees until their leaves fall off, then encourage them to try again next year.” ~ Chad Sugg



I only went through half a page of quotes on the subject "autumn" and got nine quotes that I fell in love with. My absolute favorites are the last four. my favorite out of those would most likely be Lauren DeStefano or William Cullen Bryant. Happy Fall Friday everyone hopefully I'll be able to make some more posts soon. Love you always! ~ Sharah Shmiles XOXO

Books And Letters

 Dear Sarah,

 I've been falling in love with the writing of letters lately. And since I've been in keyboarding instead of gym, I can type 40 gwam, (ocassionally...) I don't know how people figure out gwam it just confuses me when I try to figure it out. But that's what technology is for, right?

 Recently though, I haven't been really reading. Only on Fridays in english class do I get to do so really... And I only get to read for a little under 58 minutes, which isn't very long considering I used to read all day non-stop during summer vacation.

 The thing is I've never been a huge fan of libraries, and I don't think I ever will be either. Something about libraries just makes me, uh, loathe. Did I use that word correctly? I mean I'm perfectly fine with borrowing a friends' old book but still!

 Oh well, I guess my point here is I'm saving up to buy a car when I'm sixteen or so, just depending on whether where we move next allows sixteen year old to have a drivers license or not. And inorder to buy a car you need more than a thousand dollars to get a decently cheap one so we are looking at 4,000 to 5,000 dollars, sometimes 3,000 dollars if you're lucky! But books on the kindle or from the store cost money too! Or at least pretty much all the good books on the kindle do! You know?

Love Always,

Sarah

Libras and Luck

 Zodiac signs, the sign you're given the day your born pretty much! And right now if you were born between September 23rd and October 22nd, as you might have guessed you my friend are considered a Libra! For all you Libras out there... Happy late/early or just happy birthday!!!

 Your symbol is the scale, element is air, and your planet is Venus! Your lucky colors are blue and pink, lucky stone is the Opal, lucky day is Friday, and your lucky number is six! Your qualities apparently are charismatic, gentle, good-looking, kind, stylish, romantic, easy going and intuitive!

 Yesterday was my mama's birthday, guess we all know where I get my good-looks from, now don't we( If you don't get it go reread the qualities of a Libra)? Haha, oh Sarah, you're hilarious! ;D Well I got my mom a present this year, well two I guess, I got her two picture frames from target and then I printed out two pictures I took with my camera of her(both pictures were in that post I uploaded this month). And my mom loves it when we get her homemade things like cards for example so in the back of the first picture fram behind the photo I wrote a letter for her, and she cried a little after she read it and gave it to my dad to read, and he said she was a cryer or something and she said he was cold hearted and then she told me that was the best birthday gift I've ever given her. 

 After all of this she took me to volley ball practice a little after 5:50 AM. When I had realized that there's A LOT of Libras in the world! Then my mom and me went to Walmart to get stuff to make Rachel Rae's Fake-Baked Ziti, and her (Red Velvet) Cake. Then we came home and started cooking the Ziti since that what she wanted for her birthday dinner! It was soo much fun to cook with her and run around the store looking for cheeses! :)

"My mother was the most beautiful woman I ever saw. All I am I owe to my mother. I attribute all my success in life to the moral, intellectual and physical education I received from her." ~ George Washington

"My mother said to me, 'If you are a soldier, you will become a general. If you are a monk, you will become the Pope.' Instead, I was a painter, and became Picasso." ~ Pablo Picasso

 I love my mommy, and I cannot imagine saying I hate her or any thing like that! Okay so I want anyone who reads this and will ever have the time to go to the link and read ALL, well MOST, of the quotes to do so, because they were all really good ones and pretty much true! http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_mom.html    Thanks! 

~ XO Sarah Smiles XO

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No Show Smiles.

 Now Starting...

~~~~~~~~~~The No Show Smiles Series!~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The End.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

These last three were taken during the making of the series! Oh and I edited all the pictures in my series and these three extras by myself. And the only photos in here that I didn't take were the three that I'm wearing my lime green tee with the word hope on the back (My mom took those)! If you ever want easy access to any of these besides the extras You'll have to go to Instagram and type in the Hashtag "#NoShowSmiles" (no quotation marks) in their search engine! Thanks!

Pressed Flowers and Sneaker Speakers.

I had the most incredible post title earlier when I was waiting for my mom to pick me up around 3:08-ish but, now I can't recall what it was! So this one will have to do! We are going to go back in time for a bit, so you will know why I chose this title!

So a couple years back I went to a Christian's Camp in Texas with my old best friend Morgan, but that was before we were both in middle school and she was in seventh grade and I was a sixth grader at the same school. Then she and her stupid friend became bitches and put all kinds of trash and wrappers on my head on the damn school bus! Which made me want to yell at them, a annoying eighth grade cheerleader, the other Sarah, pretty much everyone in the back of the bus, there for I got my mom to drive me to school in the mornings with out giving her a reason, and just rode it in the evenings when they all had some kind of sports and stuff. But this is not the story I meant to tell! .-. Sorry for getting carried away with all the whores, bitches, others which apparently is how my english teacher used to classify characters in a Shakespeare play that we will most likely end up reading this year! :D

But before all that stuff happened I went to my first camp with her and my Grandma and Uncle Jaime (yes that's how he spells it,) sent me a bible in the mail. so I took that with me and only used it once there and since camp I've read parts of it when I couldn't sleep at night because of my overwhelming thoughts. But Morgan told me about pressing flowers in books! And I had a bouquet of flowers in a vase that I pressed in the blue bible that's on top of my desk, but only one of the many flowers turned out wonderful so I kept it! It's a yellow rose, and it's in a iPod/iPhone speaker thats shaped like a black Converse High Top! :) It currently occupies space on a shelf in front of my white board on my desk that my friend since the 2nd grade, Autumn, left me a goodbye message on over a year ago.

As Nikki Berry would say BRBTEARYEYES!

Oh but I think my Volley Ball coach really sees great potential and determinedness in me cause she let me and another manager sub for two girls when the actual players scrimmaged, she might have regretted it though a little after I started playing because I couldn't pass right except two times that I got some really good ones in there! ^_^ I'm going to read my book now since the movie comes out Friday and I have like 22% left!


"Good, better, best. Never let it rest. Until your good is better and your better is best." ~ Tim Duncan


"You can't put a limit on anything. The more you dream, the farther you get." ~ Michael Phelps


"When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro." ~ Hunter S. Thompson


I couldn't decide between the three.. So what? I'm still a weirdo! :) ~ Sarah Smiles!

(P.S. I'm going to post a photo series after this then I'll read! And this is my first photo series so please don't be TOO harsh if you don't like it! Thanks c: )

Let Us Just Dance? :]

I will sing and now I shall dance. I’ll laugh until I can’t breath, and then I’ll choke when I gasp.

Then I’ll go through the check list of my mind.

Stop laughing.
Breath.
Start laughing again.
This hasn’t happened since probably May, 2012… And it happened yesterday, in the morning actually. You know how there’s that app called "Draw Something," right? Well my friend, Kiana, asked me if I wanted to play, but it’s a different version! So far we’ve done this five times, but the second and first ones were the funniest!

But you play by having one person put down something simple like a spiral or triangle, and then the everyone takes turns adding stuff to the drawing! You have to be imaginative and be able to see things differently!

I love it! :) The sticky note below is the very first one we did and it's a lot funnier if you know everything. (And if you could actually read what it says.) So with the first one we started with an oval and it just went on from there! :D





 So I meant to post this last night but didn't get to finish it! By the way all of my apologies are meant and I always think about my blog, which means I always want to post! Like everyday actually, like I did for a couple of weeks before! So I'm sorry I haven't been able to post. I've been busy with "managing" for Volley Ball. I don't think I want to do anymore sports, especially here. I'm just going to do softball(if the have it at the same time as track) and if they dont have softball I'll do track again but I'll just be a sprinter and nothing more. Then in Highschool I'll be doing journalism or writing, which ever they have, and if I like doing yearbook this year I'll do that in Highschool as well, then I'll be in Algebra II(Or is it calculus next year? But it's one of those or Alg. I, just depending if I get through Algebra I this year), and I'll be in Art of course, also I'll do a language most likely since I think thats required, but I'll then take a Science course like Chemistry or something, and then what ever else is required! ^___^

Oh my gosh! I don't think I've mentioned the boy that I THINK likes me! I believe his name is Michael but no promises that it is! Oh, and Nicole, I found out how cute he is this week! :3 But anyways he's pretty damn cute, and he always says "Hi Sarah!" and I just give a flashy smile full of metal.. Today when he said it this guy interrupted him, and 'Michael' started cussing at him, in that yelling type of whisper, and I couldn't help but want to laugh ya' know? :)


"It's never as good as it feels, and it's never as bad as it seems." ~ Edward Zander

My First Week of School

Hi there! I'm sorry for my failed attempt to post on the first day of school! I didn't exactly relise they would start volleyball try outs on the first day! :/

So here I am a week later before school! I kind of like it at 5:00, 6:00 in the morning well at least I do outdoors... It's so nice and calm in the dark of the morning, its not nearly as hot as it is at noon either!

So if your wondering why I'm up so early on a Tuesday, and not getting ready for school.... It's because  I'm already finished! Considering my parents woke me up at 5:00 AM because they thought morning volleyball practices started today, which we found out they didn't when I went to see if anyone was in the gym and no one was. So here I am at 6:30 typing this!

But anyways what this was supposed to be about! I'm making it about my first week of school instead of the first day! So it was almost amazing! My first day was awesome, but I guess it wasn't exactly my first day since I got a schedule change after two days(?) I think at least.. So my first day really started Wednesday, for those of you who didn't know this, Wednesday is my favorite day of the school week. So I have so many amazing teachers! My favorites are my journalism teacher and my english teacher! :D

My journalism teacher is hilarious, sarcastic, and teaches journalism, plus we're in charge of year book. My English teacher is teacher has a super long beard like Santa Claus but it's like red, he curses, doesn't really care, let's us chew gum, gives us pretty much freedom, and is funny! :D

Oh plus there's a cute boy named Martin, who just happens to make me fangirl on the inside! He's in my english class, he's extremely funny and awesome! :)

 

But after Wednesday, things started heading down hill. On Thursday I found out I was practice manager among three other girls, for the Volleyball team. Which absolutely sucks. I have to go to all the practices and games, and I'll pretty much never get to play in a game. T-T BRBUGLYCRYING as my friend Nicole would say! And the coach gave us a day to decide whether we wanted to do it or not. But of course my parents are pretty much forcing me to do so, for a reason that doesn't even matter anymore. And know my dad knows I blog, and what the name of my blog is. Which we all know will end terribly, because I'll be more expected of, and to do more. -_- And I hate that!

So then friday, I don't even want to begin. Let's just say, I went to school, all my classes, technically speaking I scurried off to practice, then I went to a Volleyball Meeting! Oh and now I have a "little sister" whose on the seventh grade Volleyball team, and we have to meet once a week and I don't even now her name or what she looks like, so I'm absolutely screwed.

I'm gone. Bye! ~ Sarah Smiles


"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." ~ Buddha

The Story.

Story behind this? Her dad was leaving on a 2 year deployment. She was crying, and wouldn’t let go of her dad’s hand, even when he stood in line, saluting. No one had the heart to break them apart.
I seriously have tears in my eyes, and now I’m freaking crying. Please Reblog for all us kids who have to watch our parents leave, and none of us knowing if we will see them again. <\3 The hardest part of being a Military Brat. :’(

Winning!

Tyler&Weston: Hey Sarah are you winning?

Me: YUP! I'M WINNING!

Oh, how I miss those boys! Tyler and Weston go to my old school. Tyler is and forever will be my twin! ^_^

So I have decided I today I will make my post that I've promised! I have also decided, today I am WINNING!!! You may be asking yourself, "Why is she making it today, and decided she's winning?"

The answer is... Drum roll please... I have my wonderfully magnificent notebooks, pens(red and blue), pencils, and lined paper! Oh and I took a Math Placement test and I am pretty sure that I, Sarah C. Smiles, has ACED THE TEST! But none of us will know until my Councilor contacts us. So until then... WE WILL DANCE UNDER THE MOON LIGHT OF MY FISH BOWL!    

SO. MANY. DANCING. GIFS!

I love Tumblr ^_^

I know you love all my posts because, well WHO WOULDN'T?! I have amazing dancing pictures, and I write them! TWO IN ONE BABAAYYY! Oh but anyways, since I know you love my posts, I give you this quote from the AMAZING Dr. Seuss, yo!

“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ~ Dr. Seuss

Haha I can't stop watching the kid in the last one! And yes I know I was being a little to cocky in that one paragraph... I am truly and dearly sorry for my weirdness, but you know, once you start winning you can't stop. ;D ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

( P.S The C stands for Catherine, as in Sarah Catherine!) :)

Coming to Your Senses

The way healthy grass feels under my bare feet, as it plays a game of Peek-a-Boo through the spaces of my toes. The way it smells, when it's been freshly cut at the break of noon. But watered by sprinklers making the moment damp, muddy, and unclear like the morning fog over a calm lake.

How warm my tears are as they stroll so lightly and smooth on the side of my face. Then it reaches an end. It slowly becomes cold and falls like a feather, leaving a wet streak with a slight taste of salt on the skin.

The sound of my pencil. A pencil at work, just working for a soft creative hand, being moved by nerves with instructions from the brain of a human. Instructions moving through the person like lightning and metal, but with no shock.

When you see the forming of a rainbow. And suddenly you feel hope. That hope you felt as a kid when you heard the song of an ice cream truck, just out of reach and sight, on the opposite side of the hill. It's the hope that some where someone found the end of the seven colored rainbow, with a leprechaun sitting on a black pot with shining gold inside. He would tell the person who discovered what was thought to be impossible, "It's about time," then the short red haired man would hand over the heavy riches and head for the small undiscovered door in the nearby tree.


"Impossible is a word to be found only in the dictionary of fools." ~ Napoleon Bonaparte


"I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter." ~ Walt Disney

I like Walt Disney. He's an inspiration! An idol! I wish I could have met the man. I guess the thing I like most about him is that, he believed in the impossible. He believed that you could do anything as long as you believed in your self and what you wanted to do. *sigh* As much as I'd like to stay on my computer and type for hours to you all about how amazing Walt Disney was... My friend was reading creepypasta stuff and is scared because of that Possession Movie Trailer came on, so it is now my duty to choose whether I want to scare his ass more or calm him down! Bye!!! ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

(P.S I will post again before school starts, since this was kind of a "I can't sleep, and had a sudden inspiration thought" kind of post, :P so stay awesome!)

No Handle Bars

I can ride my bike with no handle bars. No handle bars. No handle bars. I can ride my bike with no handle bars. No handle bars. No handle bars. Look at me, Look at me. Hands in the air like its good to be. Alive and I'm a famous rapper, even when the paths are all crookedy. I can show you how to dosey doe. I can show you how to scratch a record. I can take apart the remote control, and I can almost put it back together. I can tie a knot in a cherry stem. I can tell you about Leif Ericson. I know all the words to De Colores. And I'm proud to be an American. Me and my friends saw a platypus, me and my friends made a comic book, and guess how long it took.

This is a song I heard a LONG time ago. Maybe, three or four years ago? I don't know. All I remember is that it was before my sister left for college. We were in my parents bedroom, cleaning maybe, and she was playing it from her IPod. Since then, all I've been able to remember from the song was, "I can ride my bike with no handle bars, no handle bars, no handle bars." Then she left the house when she was 17 (she was in her senior year early), but that was two years ago. It was actually quite peaceful after she left.

My sister, Kristen, was not even close to a saint. She wasn't very far from one either, though. We would fight, so much, but we stopped when she was 16 or 15 I think. I remember how she was so good with make up, and one time we were home alone and decided to do a prank on our parents. She made it look like I had a black eye! Then we got water and made it seem like we were crying. My dad didn't buy it for a second though.

Oh, I bet your wondering why I'm saying my dad.. Well, I'm really Kristen's step sister. Trust me, we look nothing alike. She told me she'd never call me a step sister, and I won't ever call her one either. Her dad and our mom married, had my sister 19 years ago, and after a while I guess they split up. Then our mom married my dad, then they had me 13 years ago...

I love my sister, her two other baby sisters, her dad and step mom. I also love my mom and dad, and my brother who just so happens to be a German Shepard. ;)

"Family means no one gets left behind or forgotten." ~ David Ogden Stiers

I'm probably not going to do anymore posts until the first day of school and a day between now and then. I start school the 27th of August so one more week of staying up late and sleeping until noon. Love you all. ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

It's Nice.

Sorry for the not so "PAZAZ" title, but I couldn't really think of anything that would fit this better.

I've been watching Pretty Little Liars ever since I got Netflix two days ago. Last night I was up until 1:30 watching it and got scared and creeped out when they found the videos of them, and when they found Ian dead in that abandoned place. It scared me especially since we don't have out alarm system installed yet, and well we aren't exactly in the nicest of cities..

I needed to talk to someone last night but I knew everyone except one of the people I trust were asleep. I haven't talked to him in so long! He was asleep already though since it was about 3:30 his time when I said "Hey, uh are you up" him. So this morning he texted me back, "No," but that's how it started.

But I've been talking to him for two hours now, and this has been the first normal conversation with a guy that hasn't been extremely awkward had to do with flirting, or going out, or anything like that in such a long time. It's been so nice. Just nice to be just friends with him, and to know that that won't change. And I wouldn't change it for the world.

For the longest time it seems, I haven't talked to anyone except my best friend. I don't know why it's been like that, but it has. I mean I'll occasionally text some one briefly, but it never lasts..

"You never know what you have until it's gone" ~ Toby Mac(?)

Bye, and always remember to keep your friends close. ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

SNY :)

Hello everyone! So as you may or may not know, today is Sunday! So I went to church this morning until about 11:00 then to Sunday school(A.K.A Junior High/youth bible study)... Sunday school, was well how do I put this?... Extremely hilarious, and interesting. But I met a girl named Victoria there, she was extremely nice and proved that you can tie-dye your hair! XD

Oh, yeah! I bet you're wondering about the title of this post... It stands for Sunday Night Youth. That's mostly why I'm not typing this until now! SNY is for the youth either going into 7th, 8th, or 9th grade (those who are going into 9th grade only come until school starts). So every Sunday night or afternoon(5:30, 6:30, and so on) the adults teaching bible study do a bunch of different events, for us. For example tonight was movie night! Next week it'll be a pool party, and then they have a bon fire the day before school starts! I don't know if they do this all during the school year too, but I guess I'll find out for the both of us! ^_^

But I now "know" four people! First person is Victoria, then there's Emma(who's headed off to high school), after Emma there is Abby(also headed off to HS), and last but not least, Marie Grace(headed to a doom I  know as high school as well..)! The last two girls I mentioned, I do not know very well... I just know their names and that Abby is stressed over a boy, not because of him, but what he did. O.o Which is basically the same thing if you ask me...

"I've been taught that love is beautiful and kind, but it isn't like that at all. It is beautiful,but it's a terrible beauty, a ruthless one, and you fall—you fall, and the thing is—
The thing is you want to. You don't care what's coming, you just want who your heart beats for." ~ The Unwritten Rule by Elizabeth Scott

♥ Sarah are you crying? No it's these damn contacts, th-they got something in them or *sniff sniff* something.. But I never told you guys that I finished my books two days ago, and I finished it in under two days. :) Best romance novel ever... 11:11 make a wish! ~ Sarah Smiles

The Sorry Truth.

Hi again! I decided I would post again tonight before I head off to my real wonderland.. Since technically speaking my life is no wonderland, since usually what happens in wonderlands are fairytales.

A fairytale, one with a princess, with that prince that even in books and movies and shows has all of the females' attention, yet he still only pays attention to that one average looking, middle class, girl with the wonderful personality that only he and her few friends will ever notice. The girl that the fairy tale never revolves around, because apparently only the beautiful, rich people get the guy who has the attention of everyone. And then theres that boy.. The one that's described the same as the girl. The boy who's always made sure that he'll never be mentioned.

Personally, now that I've thought about this, and typed it up for the world to see... I can't believe I would idolize the princess, well I guess it's because I've always wanted to be her, no matter which princess it was, I couldn't care less. I guess something I'll have to face is what I want.

I want to be rescued from the tippy top of the tower. I  want to be put under a cursed poison that will make me sleep, until the boy comes out of no where and finds me in the forest and somehow, just somehow knows that only a kiss will bring me back, and I would know he didn't stop trying to find me... I want to be that masked girl in a dress and converse for heavens sake, who get to dance with him, and he wouldn't know it was me the whole time until he searched through the whole city, town, or kingdom with a sneaker, the one that came off my foot when I had to run and catch my curfew, and he would find me. He'd recognize the color of my hair and hair style, my eyes, my voice.

But this all will not happen because well let's face it that only happens in dreams and tall tales... And I'm in neither that I know of.

Good night though! This took me exactly half an hour to write so I believe I'll be tired in the morning.. Hopefully not too tired, and hopefully I'll fall to sleep easier then last night since it took me a stupid hour to do so. ~ Sarah Smiles Tiredly

These Days, I Swear!

Hello There! So I now have Internet running through the walls, and well I guess Wifi is like a globe of wireless internet around one spot, but whatever! Whoa now that has me wondering... What if you dug a tunnel right under your house and sat there with your laptop or kindle, or Ipod/Iphone, would you still be able to connect to Wifi?



I'm watching Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends. I can't believe they would ever stop this show! I mean seriously?! Just seriously?! What about Phil of the Future? Or Lizzie McGuire? What happened to all the channels I knew and loved? Oh my gosh, I miss the Rugrats! Sorry for rambling and all, but Nicole and i started discuss the subject... So now it's all I can think think about! :/ Stupid producers, making the stupidest shows... IN FREAKING HISTORY!

*Sigh* •_•

                   


Gosh, I feel so old! So one day(over a month ago) I was babysitting this boy in my old neighbor hood... When he woke up from a nap he took, there was something weird on TV so we searched the channels! So I got to one of the millions of Disney Channels and Lilo and Stitch the movie was playing so I asked him if he'd ever seen it... And this kid... This four year old, happened to tell me "No," so of course I change it to the channel! And I felt so terribly old, and I'm only thirteen!

No, you just don't make a thirteen year old feel like she's 40, and talking about The Hair Bear Bunch, or about the Beach Boys to a 4 year old.. It, it's just wrong!

"I'm so much older than I can take." ~ The Killers (Thanks to Nicole who helped me with my quote)

I may or may not post later, there's no telling no that I've gotten into blogging VERY often so, for now... This is goodbye! ~ Sarah Smiles