No I'm Not Nervous Coach,

Truth is, I'm terrified at how much I cry these days, at how much I never want to get out of bed ever, how much I listen to depressing Indie music on pandora, and most of all how much I wish I was some one else.

Especially since I don't have it "bad." My parents love me and aren't divorced. Guys tell me they love or like me, I have awesome friends, and I also do wonderfully in school.

Can someone please just diagnose me for something? I'm tired of feeling like this every single day, and having to put fake smiles on everyday and perfect it in the mirror.

"Cure sometimes, treat often, comfort always." ~ Hippocrates

See you all later. ~ Sarah

 

^Oh look my new desktop background...^

Bagels

I'm in love with a bagel. It has strawberry cream cheese spread mostly even on top. With the slightest waves of pink imperfections as a reminder its a human invention and food. It's never toasted because I'm a freak and I hate that when it comes to this delightful thing. And then shared even if I have no desire to do so among everyone I know here.

But I'm serious, bagels(along with their spreads), southern sweet tea, and quesadillas are the best things that this world has at the moment. Well those three things and Perks of Being a Wallflower!

I've decided Perks is the most amazing book/movie, as well as The Unwritten Rule(just book), that has ever been written and acted out! I cried so much during the end just like I did in the book. I'm to glad I watched it on Saturday!

"Welcome to the Island of Misfit Toys." ~ Perks of Being a Wallflower

Bye. ~ Sarah Smiles

Waiting for Perks

You wait forever. Then when your told you can stop waiting and you get your hopes up it's only to be disappointed. Then your told the same thing again so again you get hope in your circulatory system... But you realize it was all for nothing. Now is about the time to get the truth. Time to use the internet.

Why can't a movie be released worldwide on one day? I ask because I've been waiting to see Perks of Being a Wallflower for maybe a month or so, and have been disappointed like three times! Apparently it comes out Nationwide on October 12th and I swear I'll write a letter to the people who control release dates if I don't have the opportunity to watch this movie on the 12th! And trust me, they will be sorry! Or at least they will be if they know what's good for 'em! ;P

But I went shopping this afternoon after school, because for some reason I had to go to school on the magnificent Columbus Day of October 8th, 2012! But whatever! Yesterday I watched a bunch of movies, as well as Saturday! Oh and the guy I like, Michael, got a hair cut over the weekend! Jee I hope he asks me to go to the Halloween Dance with him or at least to dance, (after I'm finished at the photo booth for yearbook that is!) and I could ask Kiana to hold my Nikon Camera and not to take her eyes off of it what-so-ever for any reason, and we shall get married and have a few kids and I'll be a forensic scientist/photographer and he'll be whatever it is he wishes to be! :) Hey, a girl can dream can't she?


 "We accept the love we think we deserve." ~ Perks Of Being A Wallflower


Excuse my crazy, endless sneezing and germs flying on my screen, keyboard and arm! :/ ~ Sarah Smiles XOXO

I Should, I Would, but I Shan't

The harmony of the orange, yellow, and slightly brownish leaves on the trees outside are invisible, but yet I still see them all. Some of them falling at a frequent speed, while the others hang on for life as the forceful wind tries to take away all of their hope.

All I have is my memories from the past years, from when there were trees growing from their seedlings in the same location for many years. When all of the leaves from the trees would fall at a slow pace, be raked into a pile, and then would be crashed into by a mindless child, or slightly kicked by someone on a swing tied to a thick and trustworthy branch.

The fuzzy hoodies fitting loosely around torsos. The hot chocolate flowing through and warming slightly chilled bodies. Yet all I have this amazingly loved season, are none other than faint memories. For every time I go outside I'm hit with a gush of cool winds and a terribly hot atmosphere. I'm sure all of the mountains would be absolutely gorgeous in fall if we were not in a burning desert with spiky bushes, small unnatural trees, and 93˚ weather until probably November it may get in the 80's but you can never be sure.

All I ask for is a place like Northeastern Kansas and Northwestern Missouri, where they are already in the 50's and 60's... Life should be, and could be like this for me... But it shan't.




“The sounds I had heard seemed worthy to mingle with this bright and perfumed atmosphere, and to thrill the beautiful scenery around me.” ~ William Cullen Bryant

“Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns.” ~ George Eliot

“No spring nor summer beauty hath such grace As I have seen in one autumnal face.” ~ John Donne

“I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.” ~ L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

“I want to say something so embarrassing about September that even the leaves start blushing and turning red.” ~ Jarod Kintz

“Fall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.” ~ Lauren DeStefano

“Autumn...the year's last, loveliest smile.” ~ William Cullen Bryant

“Autumn is the hardest season. The leaves are all falling, and they're falling like they're falling in love with the ground.” ~ Andrea Gibson

“Love the trees until their leaves fall off, then encourage them to try again next year.” ~ Chad Sugg



I only went through half a page of quotes on the subject "autumn" and got nine quotes that I fell in love with. My absolute favorites are the last four. my favorite out of those would most likely be Lauren DeStefano or William Cullen Bryant. Happy Fall Friday everyone hopefully I'll be able to make some more posts soon. Love you always! ~ Sharah Shmiles XOXO